All over again?

For the last 12 years, I worked as a freelance contractor for a project that I was passionate about. Due to some recent changes, though, this project shut down. I feel the emptiness, like a hole in my stomach, and I’ve been trying to figure out what’s next.

To tell you the truth, I don’t know yet.

But I do know a few things …

Almost four years ago, the former administrator of my building retired, leaving the job vacant. The residents hired an outside administrator, but after a short period of time, we were unsatisfied with him and the way he operated. As we couldn’t find anyone to replace him, I volunteered to fill in on a temporary basis—and I’ve been on the job since then. I even studied for and passed a property administration course. Starting a new challenging part-time career at the age of 52 was a little scary, and sometimes I still ask myself what I’m doing … but I also love it.

Last year, I was faced with an amazing opportunity to work in the nutrition field. So again I studied and worked really hard on my second new career. Now I get to help people out not only with their wellness and fitness, but also spiritually—praying for them, encouraging them, and putting myself in their shoes so I can understand them better.

Over the last months, I’ve been working both jobs along with some freelancing, and I’ve learned so much about good organization, managing my time, and asking God for guidance even for simple issues.

I never imagined I’d end up doing all this, but I felt it was God engineering it behind the scenes, and I just had to go along. So now when I feel this emptiness in my stomach, I remind myself of all the opportunities God has given me and how He has always opened better, more suitable doors for me when other doors closed.

I don’t know if I’ll accomplish all my goals, but I relax, because I know who is with me while I accomplish His.